Challenges

Life is full of challenge. As I type this, I'm nursing my baby while typing. That's a challenge.

I realized I need to blog as a form of therapy. What better blog than my homeschool blog. I'm sure there are Eemas out there that are struggling right now and could benefit from hearing that they aren't alone.

I'm trying to find a handle on this new life I am living. I'm not a career woman anymore. No longer am I trying to find my place in Retirement industry and trying to fit in the mold they want me to fit in. I no longer live in a large, vibrant Jewish Community. I'm in a large town with a much smaller Jewish Community. I have been 5 months without a car. It's finally in the shop and I try to pretend that it's not something I think about all day long.

I'm dealing with the reality of having placed my children in public school during their formative years. Where it's been a small thing for my son, it's taken a huge toll on my daughter. I have had to ask for help with her. I hate asking for help. I would rather walk on a bed of fire ants. I'm that stubborn. In my gut I believe she has dyslexia. Once I get my car (see, it hasn't been 5 minutes and I'm thinking about my car again) I hope to take her to be tested officially. Her reading teacher is trained in helping children with learning issues and I'm confident that the Barton program they are using will help her learn to read. But I'm a mom and I worry. How will this affect her future? Why don't I have what it takes to teach her to read? How do I teach her everything else when reading is the beginning, middle and end?

My son is eager to learn and his biggest challenge is loneliness. He loved the social aspect of school. 

Well, I must continue this post another time as my infant needs my attention.

Ta ta for now.